Xenon 2 Shopkeep

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I'm having one of those days today. You know the will he / won't he kind - Will he just put his foot down and drive into a lamppost, will he throw someone out of the window or tie their neck in a knot, will he snap a keyboard in half like a wafer-thin-mint, will he drink the drain-o or just start chewing drawing pins like tic-tacs.

I need to blow off some steam.
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baphomet

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So I haven't posted here in.. well. a bloody long time. No matter.

Really I just wanted to bemoan that fact that I can't bemoan things elsewhere. Because everyone really has adopted social media these days, there's nowhere I can complain about things without people getting all concerned and fussy. I don't want that, I just want to bitch and rant a bit and get some validation when I'm grumpy. Like what the internet used to be for!

It's not like I have terrible stuff to really complain about, it's al First World Problems; Money's a difficulty at the moment and I could really do with a job that pays significantly more and irritates less, house-flux is causing a massive deficit in solitude-time which I think I may have to become a hermit for a year or two to deal with; At least my lack-of-solitude is spent with Clark, so things could be worse.

I miss Aberdeen a lot more than I thought I would. This move is a lot more difficult than I had hoped for, but I'm hopeful it'll still bear the fruit I want it to.

I don't have enough friends around me. I love Clark, I love loving with him despite its trials, but I terribly, terribly miss my friends. I need to goof off, hang out, shoot the shit. I need mates. So the saying goes, you don't know what you got 'til its gone. And I left behind some really good people.

We'll just have to see how it goes.
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Xenon 2 Shopkeep

Brum Soon

So it is just a matter of a few weeks now, before I leave the silvery swathes of the granite city.

My new home in Birmingham, alongside Clark, beckons.

I'm starting to be excited... Sad to leave, but still...
Xenon 2 Shopkeep

Avatar.

I just saw Avatar. It's a decent flick. It's pretty. It made me tingle in the right places. 3D was okay.

More importantly, it did something that films don't seem to do for me much anymore - it let me put aside my cynicism. I actually managed to watch it and feel some things I've not felt in a long while. Dragonish, flying things, beastly things, alien things. Despite a mediocre and predictable story that didn't teach me anything really new, it let me think of things that have been on the back burner.

Things I don't feel enough anymore. Things I regret not feeling enough of. Things that give my life shape and texture and brilliance and wonder.

Not to say that I don't have other things in my life that do this - I've discovered plenty of them over the past few years. But..

I've lived as a normal human being for a bit too long. I don't want to lose sight of something I've had since my childhood that let me be more that. It would be truly shameful.
baphomet

Meet Susanoo!

Susanoo is my first car. He's a Toyota Rav4 XT3 (2003, 53 plate) VVT-I two-litre petrol. He's very shiny and zoomy and despite having required a new battery already (I got him in a private sale) works very well indeed.

No, I have not yet passed my driving test. Hopefully will do by the end of February.

Click for a better look!